It's hard to wait around for something you know that might never happen.
But it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you ever wanted.
"Where there is love, there is life."
Tonight, I so doubt the existence of unconditional love. Or Agape, if you would like it to be called.
Perhaps, I'll never be able to take words as they are again.
Maybe, not a matter of ability. Just my wayward tendency to over-think.
Bad bad.
But yet again, it's my way of protecting myself.
Nobody will ever be able to truly understand what I went through. And I guess I won't ever want anyone to understand because it hurts so much.
I'm drained, from the inside out.
I pray with all of my heart, that 2012 will be a much better year.
